so..last week was great/busy/crazy/hectic!

i had to get so much work done by wednesday so i could enjoy thursday and the weekend. ahh. but then thursday came, and it started out like bad day. ever have one of those? well i do not. not one bit. but it got better. =]]] yay for that. i was walking to my chem recitation and was on the 3rd floor of the stairs, one more to go!, then i see my lab partner coming down. he's like "dude, what are you doing? class is like wayy over!" then i realized, oh crap. my whole day is off by an hour! ugh! so i realized that i needed to meet andrew in like 2 minutes, not one hour and 2 minutes. so as i was walking to our routinely thursday meeting place, the bell tower, i saw a boy fall flat on his chin. it was terrible. i felt so bad for him. he's okay, but ouch. then, as i was going to eat lunch, the waffle mix was out and took forever to get it filled. i really wanted a waffle. then when i went to put it in the waffle maker, i noticed the timer was NOT working so i had to kinda guess how long 3 minutes was. and that's not easy sometimes. so then when i finally got my food, i went to sit down by andrew. he was almost done with his food. oh wells. then, from there, it was a great day!

i put my christmas tree up! put lights all over my half of the room, watched dirty dancing, relaxed! then....what i've been waiting months for was finally here! 8 of us girls on my floor walked to wabash landing 9, the movie theater, and saw TWILIGHT! at 12:01 a.m. it was amazing! so so so so so so good! then 4 of the girls went back, but 4 of us went to triple xxx and had some food at 2:30 in the morning! then i got back to my room at 3:30 and slept till a lil after 6. then i headed to my chem lab. and then had two meetings, then headed home! the drive home was lonely, but i sang a lot. =]]

then i went to angie's and cooked supper with them. mom, me, angie, bob, whit, bryce, and austin. it was a nice supper. then we headed to terre haute to catch the 10:10 showing of twilight! amber met us there. so it was us 5 girls. it was great! then i got a few hours of sleep and then the leukings picked me up at 6:45 a.m. and we headed up to purdue for the iu/purdue game...in which we totally annihilated them! =]]] oh yeah. got to see quinn. that was nice. tailgated a bit. then after the game, went out to eat at yats with chad and amanda. <3 love them. then we went to vons and i got to see chris and logan and tyler! yay! i see tyler quite a bit, but seeing chris and logan doesn't happen often so i was excited. then, went to the basketball game with andrew, my dad, and tommy. it was great! i got to see so many people in one weekend!!!!!! then i went to bed at 11:30 (so early) last night and slept 12 hours..then just been lounging today!

thanksgiving is on it's way! i'll be home tuesday night! yay!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

happy early thanksgiving!

..at a barbeque if you're vegan? No seriously. ha. had my itunes on shuffle and that surprisingly started playing. made me happy. i remember philly t coming up to me one night when we were hanging out and saying hey "what do you think of this song? i mean..i dunno, i just thought of it the other day..?" or something to that effect. but i miss it. i miss all the guys. the few girls too, i do miss them! it's just odd to say girls cus the group is mainly guys, but you understand. i don't understand why people try so hard to get out of sullivan when i'm trying so hard to come back. ha. don't get me wrong, i love love love the west side (of lafayette, that is) but i terribly miss sullivan. it's great going to school here and i couldn't change schools cus this school is great, i am just one of those people who wishes terribly that a bachelors degree would just appear out of thin air, or maybe i could just stumble upon it as if i were to find a 5 dollar bill in an old pair of jeans. that'd be nice. i just don't like the fact that i need to go to school more. i love to learn, but at my own pace, my own will. i just don't want to wait to get my degree, to wait to start my family, and all that jazz. i just want it to happen. why can't it? it happened for my parents. they are doing more than fine. we could be doing more than fine.

oh wells. so i took a personality test tonight. wow. it was 100% accurate. it said i was "ISFJ" which means that i am an introvert more so than extrovert, sensing more so that intuitive, feeling more than thinking, and judging more than perceiving. It's really cool. I was 67% introverted which makes complete sense. ;-) i'm happy with my results. but after you take it, there is a website you can go to to see your results breakdown like your characteristics, relationships, parenthood abilities, careers, and such. it described me to a T. it was just fun. nice to read.

if you wanna do it, the website for the test is www.humanmetrics.com/cgi-win/JTypes1.htm
and if you want to read the concise breakdown go to this site afterwards www.personalitypage.com/portraits.html

so so so..
i shall be going..

God bless!!!!

White teacher to ninth grade class: Okay, everyone, drop your papers on my desk. Drop it like it's hot!
Latino student (laughing): Miss, you can't say things like "drop it like it's hot"!
White teacher: Why not?
Latino student: 'cause you're white! White people don't say things like "drop it like it's hot". White people say things like "neat!" and "there is no "I" in team".

:-)

I want to do something. I would really like to do something. What? Not really sure. I need to get out of this cubicle I call home. It's nice, but I definitely need to do something without spending a chunk of change.

I tried to nap for about 3 hours, didn't fall asleep once. Don't you just hate that? I am so tired, but couldn't fall asleep. So, yep, time wasted. Oh well, I suppose.

I'm not sure why I am capitalizing everything in this post, I normally don't. Hmm..

So I know it's lame to talk about, but I want to. I want to talk about you. I wake up in the morning and think "seriously?!?! IIIIII have THHHHIIIIS!?!?!" It's just a wonderful feeling to wake up in the morning knowing that you are there. That you are mine. And by mine, I don't mean property. You know. I just mean that for this given period of time, you have chosen to give me your love, and for that, I am so thankful. Honestly. There isn't one day that I don't think of how lucky I am. I hope you see that. I can't tell you enough. But I can hope you'll notice. I remember the first time I talked to you. I knew instantly that there was more to it than that silly conversation that I still remember like yesterday. It was awkward, amazing. It was right then that I noticed those beautiful blue eyes of yours. I also remember you talking to me the next Monday at school in the hallway. You were in my hallway, probably going to math or maybe Jones room. I wasn't sure. But you said "Look who's all cool with their Swell shirt on!" And I just smiled. I wasn't sure at first if you had in fact talked to me..ME..Me..mE..Tanna Pearison, but as I looked around, I was the only person with that shirt on so it had to be me. I got that anxious feeling. The feeling I still get sometimes when I'm around you. Shouldn't I be used to you by now? Shouldn't I be used to the effect of that look on your face, that* face, my favorite face you make, the smell of you, especially right after you shower when it's like a more concentrated version, the touch of your skin. I just can't get over your goodness. Sometimes I meet you with a bad mood, hey, I'm human, it happens, but it can't last long when I'm near you. You're a happy person. It's like an aura. You just warm people without realizing it. I just love the thought of you...you and me..now that's an even better thought. Remember when we were hanging out at the gathering place? We were sitting at the table, the one farthest from the "so called stage area" near the stairs. We were talking. It was nice. Then as I was leaving, to stay at Whitneys, you told me to come with you so you could show me your glasses because you looked like a professor in them. That you did. Then you hugged me. Then I hopped into the car and was on my way. I was wondering why you were following, but you were just headed to the legion. Hehe. Then, I got a text from Jennifer Lee saying to get online immediately and there you were!:-) And the rest was history.


I LOVE YOU!!!

..out of the blue...

so i was bored...and did this..
1. Put your iPod on shuffle.
2. For each question, press the next button to get your answer.
3. YOU MUST WRITE THAT SONG NAME DOWN NO MATTER HOW SILLY IT SOUNDS!
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IF SOMEONE SAYS "IS THIS OKAY" YOU SAY?
Depends-Blink 182

WHAT WOULD BEST DESCRIBE YOUR PERSONALITY?
Uhhhhh-Will Smith

WHAT DO YOU LIKE IN A GUY/GIRL?
Purify-Metallica

WHAT IS YOUR LIFE'S PURPOSE?
The Ruined Puzzle-Dashboard Confessional

WHAT IS YOUR MOTTO?
Smile-Weezer

WHAT DO YOUR FRIENDS THINK OF YOU?
We Are Family-Sister Sledge..ha

WHAT DO YOU THINK ABOUT VERY OFTEN?
Take A Picture-Filter

WHAT IS 2+2?
I Melt With You-Sugarcult

WHAT DO YOU THINK OF YOUR BEST FRIEND?
Fair-Ben Folds Five

WHAT DO YOU THINK OF THE PERSON YOU LIKE?
Down On The Farm-Tim McGraw (Completely untrue...haha, i love you andrew, but you most def not a country guy..hehe)

WHAT IS YOUR LIFE STORY?
Saddest Girl Story-The Starting Line (what are the chances of that..haha)

WHAT DO YOU WANT TO BE WHEN YOU GROW UP?
The Music Of The Night-Andrew Lloyd Webber

WHAT DO YOU THINK WHEN YOU SEE THE PERSON YOU LIKE?
I Miss You-Incubus

WHAT DO YOUR PARENTS THINK OF YOU?
Bed of Lies-Matchbox Twenty (I'm glad this is just untrue and lame..haha)

WHAT WILL YOU DANCE TO AT YOUR WEDDING?
Get Stoned-Hinder (errrr...)

WHAT WILL THEY PLAY AT YOUR FUNERAL?
It's Gotta Be You-Backstreet Boys

WHAT IS YOUR HOBBY/INTEREST?
Ass & Titties (how embarrassing!!)

WHAT IS YOUR BIGGEST SECRET?
Boy Named Sue-Johnny Cash

WHAT DO YOU THINK OF YOUR FRIENDS?
I Wanna Be Your Love-Prince

WHAT'S THE WORST THING THAT COULD HAPPEN?
My Happy Ending--Avril Lavigne

HOW WILL YOU DIE?
Parking Structure-Dane Cook (oh my!)

WHAT IS THE ONE THING YOU REGRET?
California Girls-Beach Boys

WHAT MAKES YOU LAUGH?
7 Things-Miley Cyrus

WHAT MAKES YOU CRY?
Ace In The Hole-George Strait

WILL YOU EVER GET MARRIED?
Pick 'Em Up And Lay 'Em Down-Toby Keith (i hope this doesn't mean multiple times.)

WHAT SCARES YOU THE MOST?
American Woman-Lenny Kravitz

DOES ANYONE LIKE YOU?
Up Around The Bin-CCR

IF YOU COULD GO BACK IN TIME, WHAT WOULD YOU CHANGE?
Back That Thang Up-Juvenile

WHAT HURTS RIGHT NOW?
Something About Those Eyes-Situs

WHAT WILL YOU POST THIS AS?
Downtown-Petula Clark

..scream my lungs out
and try to get to you
you are my only one..

so, tomorrow is election day. whoever you vote for, vote for because you actually understand what they stand for and make sure it's what you want. i hate all the hype there is out for obama right now. i'm not saying don't vote for him, but i know there are a lot of voter-happy, non-educated people campaigning for him. i mean, just research a bit. ya know? i am totally cool with people voting for different people when you have reasons. it makes me angry at the ignorance of some people. i shouldn't be angry, but..well, maybe i should. after all, it's my home we're talking about. it's my future, my kids (that i assume i'll have someday) future..your future. wouldn't you want to know what we're up against? i mean, our future can be quickly changed within these next few years and it's up to us to make it a GOOD change. cus, personally, i'd like to be able to get a job (and by job, i mean a good job) upon graduation instead of last minute panicking and trying to get into a graduate school cus i can't get a job..and in the event that thatttt happens, will i even be able to afford to go to graduate school? will there be loans available? we'll see.we'll just see..

on a happier note..andrew and i raised my bed yesterday. now i can stand under it..barely..ha. i'm so happy tho. i love it. i slept there last night, a little uneasy if i may add. but it was still good, a new experience. i love the fact that i have an extra foot of room! space is so valuable. to think i took it for granted before college! ha. so i moved my futon and now i have even more open space. what shall i put there? any ideas?

tomorrow, oh tomorrow. the twilight soundtrack comes out and i'm more than excited. i cannot wait to get it. i have a break from 9:30 to 1:30 so i am going to, somehow, find a store that is selling it and, by golly, i am going to purchase it! :-) i may also get something for my "newly opened space" as well. i hope so. i also need posters for my wall. hmm, what shall i get? we'll see what is cheap i suppose. ha.

do you ever have crazy dreams? and by crazy, i don't really mean crazy absurd..i mean crazy, like ohh i wish i didn't dream that. i feel guilty for dreaming that, when really, it was merely a dream. but i feel like, maybe, if i dreamed it, it was either a deja vu or maybe i was subconsciously thinking about it. i'd hope not. because, quite frankly, this dream i had isn't exactly a nice dream. i mean, it wasn't sad as if someone died. but it wasn't something i liked to think could happen. i was sleeping, obviously, and it was the week of BGR and for some odd reason, all students moved in that week instead of just freshman like usual. so i was in andrew's room hanging out with him and his roommate. well, his roommate was not kay, it was one of his friends from last year. i couldn't tell who for some strange reason, but i knew it was his friend from last year. his laugh and voice was so familiar, so nice and pleasant, and i saw his face in my dream, but...i can't really picture it now. or even think of his name. andrew had a suite with him. but andrew doesn't actually have a suite this year. and dayne, nick, jj, will, alllllll the guys he hung out with last year were all living around him in suites. anyway, i was just sitting on the floor while andrew and said roommate were messing on their computers. i was texting. not an unusual thing for me. i text more than your average person. and then suddenly, i get a text from nick. i didn't even have his number. i haven't talked to nick since andrew was a freshman living in his tiny cubicle of a room. and...then here goes our conversation:

nick: so how's bgr going for ya? this is nick by the way.
me: oh, hey! it's going really well!
nick: so when is your free time? we should hang out sometime.
me: i'm pretty busy all day until around supper time then i'm free. (which is actually a complete lie cus in bgr you are busy from around 7 a.m. till around midnight!)
nick: sweet! we are in need of some serious hang out time!
me: sounds good! (not thinking anything of it. just two, friends..well not even real friends, hanging out..maybe to become friends, i suppose)
nick: yep, we're gonna have some sweet sweet ass hanging out time. oh and, don't bring andrew. or anyone for that matter.

yep..that was the conversation. i was upset. should i tell andrew and make him upset with his friend or do i handle it myself and clearly not hang out with nick? i do not know. so, i tell andrew and his roommate. his roommate burst into a thunderous laughter! and andrew, to my surprise, did as well. i was confused. did they not care? this wasn't right, was it? ...

...and then i woke up...

hmm...

so, cs exam tonight. bleh...we'll see how that goes!

well, i am going to get off here and wait for ANDREW (not nick) to call so i can eat lunch with him! :-)